for not being on. i have no internet at my other house, which is a messed up i feel like i got kicked out without doing anything wrong but oh wi enjoy being at my grandmas so it all good. Ill try to be on more but idk ok. love you my friends mahma

Yesterday we had a meeting people came in breaking bats bending prison bars over head, it touched me i guss i got a sensenation every time god is mention but its good. the mad a hot water bag expode and i got it signed by the 3 people. ialso got 2 tshirts one was free, and the othe my friend Jordan bought me I didt want him to spend his money on me cause i wanna pay people back i dont like being spoiled or haveing stuff bought for me, its just not me i like the stuff i have and i take care of the stuff i work hard but i get no pay, im just diffrent from every female and/or woman cause i dont need the nice clothes or expensive gifts to make me happy, all i like is shareing my life with the man who saved me for takeing my life. the woman made me see but her story is diffrent i did go looking for anything like sex and stuff to get over my problems i just locked myself in a dark place for 8 years and never wanted out cause not one could hurt me when i was locked up. if anyi replies to this i will be shocked. the thing that happened to me is i lost my grandpa, my hero, and i kept myself hidden, but i did find someone that help me and made feel like me 9 years ago. i felt loved and i pray every night to make my past better and sitll be with Ronnie Moreno, but as i lay in my bed i would cry or wake up screming his name or feel random pain in my body, like in my leg i feel at random like someone knifed me, then people look at me cause im in pain. I dont ask for much but i guess my big heart is just a joke. i know now that i will be going to the Marines after high school i rather do that then be alone and living without a reason. I cant make choices i want to move out of the est coast there is way to much drama in my lif that moving is my only choice.

i ve been to rock bottom mor than once this summer all this pain is showed harder in schoo cuse i cant top my mind from drown in memries of goodness and now its done i feel regected and worn out i dont smile or laugh but if i d it wont last long

yess this is about my ex boyfriend Ron and i would wait for him i cant beive things i did i just want to make righ tand peace but he wont listen i dont know if my fate will change but i know someone will know and it prays to change i want happiness again.

i have to say wat was 3 yrs 8 months has no reason to end so hard

i ve been to rock bottom mor than once this summer all this pain is showed harder in schoo cuse i cant top my mind from drown in memries of goodness and now its done i feel regected and worn out i dont smile or laugh but if i d it wont last long

yess this is about my ex boyfriend Ron and i would wait for him i cant beive things i did i just want to make righ tand peace but he wont listen i dont know if my fate will change but i know someone will know and it prays to change i want happiness again.

i have to say wat was 3 yrs 8 months has no reason to end so hard

Good i love being online i miss a lot im play halo2 this leads to bad halo 3 is not working for me or my cus and it really piss me off and im tired of getting hit on in halo 2 its really annoying a guy called me a soccer mom and im 17 by the way and the ppl i did meet were placeing bets on me on swat but id always get classic or ctf i hate both but wat i did do this morning i went 17 and 5 i held my whole team and i got stock with a dinosaur (eliet)